Saturday, October 29, 2011

You Are What You Do

"Tom, don't let anybody kid you. It's all personal, every bit of business. Every piece of shit every man has to eat every day of his life is personal. They call it business. OK. But it's personal as hell." - Micheal Corleone

All I have known in my little time on this planet is there is no such thing as personal and professional life. I am what I do. If I study to become a chartered accountant inspite of knowing I would be better at a lot of other things, I forfeit the right to claim that I want to become a writer someday. Thats because I dont know if I will be alive tomorrow. I am what I do today, right now, at this moment.
If I am doing something out of external pressures, societal norms, image concerns, then that is what I am - a scared, cowardly piece of shit. But courage can be acquired, bravery is a product of crisis sometimes. And therein lies hope. That is why so many people keep looking for that one thing they would die for in life. But in the meantime, there are enough things to fight for in life.
I dont want to sell junk food and barbie dolls to school kids simply because I have better access to them than the big brands. I want to take a stand, I want to fight back.
I believe in certain ideals. I have to stand for them - consistently, unequivocally and vociferously. I cant be 2 different people in personal life and professional life. Because its only my choices that will define me. Not what i was born with or what education i got or what family i come from. 
I want fame but at what price? I want money but at what cost?
I am a socialist doing capitalist work
I am a would-be capitalist who will spread socialist ideology
Hehe, I am nothing till i take a leap. I am nothing till i make a choice.
I am just a manager till then. I create nothing, I lead nothing, I DO nothing. 
I just manage - and when did that become so important?
I am worse than the guy who carries cement from one floor to another at a construction site.

I will be a leader, a creator someday
I will inspire and question and fight someday
I will have the courage to defeat the will - not just of the great governments but of my loved ones also.
I am going to be the same person in love, in hatred, in strife, in pain, in poverty, in prosperity, in life, in death.
I will keep promises then: the ones made to my loved ones, my teachers, myself.

And then, on a drunken night out with my friends, I will be able to hold my head high and tell them proudly what i am. Because I am what  I do.

And that Mr. Shahrukh Khan, is a superhero. 
Be very careful what you call a superhero next time. 
Its not a term to be used lightly.


KD said...

love it. very well written.

Atrisa said...

Oh my God, I wholeheartedly agree. It is, after all, our personalities that reflect in our work; how do you keep those two separate?

Maya Stills said...

Makes me feel good, about getting paid less,but still being a part of this business of creativity,hoping one day to influence a piece of communication which a generation would remember...

Loved it.